I too, called for help in an alcoholic stupor...over and over again. And then I wouldn't go. Finally I did go, I don't know what changed. I suppose, as they say, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. People were there for me, both in and outside of AA, damn good thing.

Try Al-anon. It's a good program for someone in the position you're in. Try 6 meetings at least. I highly recommend it. I learned much from both AA and Al-anon.