I have never had the privilege of emailing T, but I can imagine it would be hard to stop once you've started. What Butterflies said, about writing letters to your T? I do that when I need to feel connected to her. I write her a letter in my journal telling her what I want to tell her, and then often times I'll spend some time afterward thinking about what she would say to me. If I can't come up with an answer, I might share part of that letter with T the next time I see her, and get her answer. Overall, though, I do find just the act of writing to T very helpful in staying connected.

Rainbow - you're doing such hard work and it is SO healthy for you to not have that instant email connection - that quick fix, so to speak. Each week that you go through without emailing will make it a little bit easier and soon you'll feel so much stronger!