When I decided to quit writing my T, I tried to start anticipating (with pleasure) the actual being with her and talking with her and how I was going to use and enjoy that. You know how you look forward to something you want?

Granted, I started a new journal for myself/my eyes only to document the "test" of not writing her (I arbitrarily decided to test it out for 4 weeks or 6, or a couple months, something like that) and then, with her going to be away for the next two weeks (making the test even bigger), that session I left my new journal in the office when I left! LOL, talk about unsubtle hints from my unconscious. She saw, found it, and kept it for me, of course, and we talked about it when she got back; a warm, fun, funny discussion. She said she had been uncertain what to do with it, since she was going away, where to put it so she'd remember to bring it when she got back.