just got info it is he. after 4 years of nothink we know he died. and I feel horrible. funny thing that I don't want to cry because he died. I want to cry because I'm worring about my mum. Again almost the same. I don't know how to accept all of this, what to do, how to not worry about mum, how to be sure everythink is going to be fine and she will be also fine, that she will handle it easly or at least easier than in 2008... she says it's not so painfull, it's easier now, she'll be ok... but still I'm worring... I hate this feeling... I hate when that happens...