I just lost my mother 2 months ago.
I had been taking care of her for 6 years.
She had Altheimers. She went through every stage until I could not take care of her anymore, as she needed nurses and doctors and professional care.
I maintained her at home as long as i could.
She survived another 3 months at the nusing home.
I was by her side when she died, but she was not concience for 2 days.
I told her it was alright to let go. I don't know if she heard me, but an hour later she went.
She was my best and only friend.
I just got a letter from one of her friends in another state. So now I have to send out another letter w/ her obiturary.
A couple weeks after she died I met a women who knew me growing up. I had told her i had just lost my mother. I told her we have to bury our parents, that is life. Then she told me her daughter had just passed away at 49 y/o. She responded, yes I know, but we shouldn't have to bury our children. i felt pretty bad for what i had just said.
But I keep saying it to my self, it's all life and everyone goes through losing thier parents.
I have been maintaining her gravesite, and was there today actually. I feel that I am still taking care of her, but at her resting place.
It bothers me most because she was all I had. I have no other friends to speak of, because I have my own problems and i was always at home watching her.
I'm sorry for your loss. You have to think of the good times and memories. They are what lasts forever along with love. I too, wished I could of been a better son, but it is as it was...
There are no other words i can say...

I had this engraved on her stone grave marker, as she always had and loved her cats.