I feel kind of stuck in a rather negative mindset, well more negative than usual. Anyways is their any explanation for just wanting bad things to happen? but then at the same time being worried bad things will happen.....but like it can't get much worse so bad things might as well happen.

That is the best way I can describe it...but its bothering me I guess. I mean its kind of random like I might be walking across the street and have the thought 'maybe someone driving through will run me over.' but then it turns into 'they may as well.' Not sure if this is specifically a depression thing or more of an anxiety or ptsd thing since I have both of those disorders to.