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Originally Posted by kebsfroggy
Maybe it wasn't just another day but it sure felt that way.
As I looked in the mirror this morning there were no tears streaming down my cheeks but then there wasn't a smile either. Just, well just absolutely nothing.
Oh I had my to do list for today. I write one each night hoping it will provide somethinng to look forward to. But as often happens tonight it is the exactly same list. Nothing has changed only tonight I won't have to write a list.
It's been so many years now that I can even remember the last day I awoke looking forward to morning. I feel scattered to the four winds with a hurricane on the horizon. Where are my friends? Did I ever even have friends? What happened to the plans I had for the future? Did I even have plans for the future?
That image in the mirror this morning staring back didn't have a past or future, just empty nothingness.
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Hi kebsfroggy.....So sorry about your continued struggles. Your words ring so true to me also. As I tend to feel better later in the day, I couldn't count on all the fingers in the world how many times I have made a list at night of things to accomplish the following day, only to wake up in the morning feeling so dead inside that I can't even get so far as to look at the list, let alone go any further. Sigh. Very frustrating, to be sure. Sending wishes for better times......
