If you can I would move to an area that has a good mental health system and get a fresh start. Then get yourself to a locally owned coffee shop, or other local events that are conversation friendly. If you like to read join a book club like at books-a-million. If you can't move you have to get out of the circle of 'friends' you have change your number, join the Y or other gym, join a writers club, take a college course anything that gets you out of that circle of 'friends'. They will not help you get healthy. Please focus on getting healthy and a relationship usually will come.