Peaches-I was where you are and I just wanted to tell you that there is hope. Your said your T works with you on coping strategies but I wonder if there is an element missing. Something missing from your tool box. Did you ever try DBT? It saved my life. Would it help if you had some sort of bridge between your sessions? Like a group or something? Maybe it would help lessen your anxiety if you knew that you had somewhere else to go in addition to it? I'm not sure just wanted to throw an idea out there. Try not to be hard on yourself that it's taking a long time. Everyone's process is different-there is no time limit. Hugs.