That is what brought me to this group.I have lost 3 sisters,1 brother and a very close brother-in-law plus my mother in the last 4 years.Also during that time I have lost my health due to the removal of a large benign tumor on my spinal cord,my job,my friends as we work rotating shifts and lots of overtime so they went with the job.My last 2 children graduated from highschool.and now I have to leave the home I helped build with my own hands and move into something smaller and more affordable because of my lost income and it will cost less to have someone come in and help me clean.I feel empty inside.I am stuck trying to grieve my first sister to die and something slammed shut and won't even let me feel the others except for this huge emptyness.I talked to a doc who specilizes in grief therapy and he told me to pick the one that affected me the most and write them a letter and grieve one at a time.He says that is all a person can handle.I think it is a good idea but I don't feel anything right now and I don't want to open myself up to the pain.I know I will have to soon if I want to get my depression under control.