Part of me wants to drop the tough act and call my Social Worker to tell her how bad things really are, another part is uncontrollable in my actions...

I keep getting these violent thoughts in my head. I'm also swearing a lot at myself and these are signs the anger is getting bad. I feel these thoughts have been brushed off my Social Worker in the past as she didn't think I'd be the type to act on them.

I've thought about calling - asking that if I do see her on Monday to have someone else there at the CMHT to supervise me. I realise this sounds drastic - but my violent thoughts of throwing furniture around the room/ kicking walls etc have been too. Just now it's all come flooding in again.

What would you guys do in a situation like this? It's like my Social Worker refuses to see the bad in any potentially harmful situation. x