I have one son...only one. When I'm feeling very low on the "what's my purpose" scale, I think about him. I certainly wish my wife and I would have had more children, but I remain so grateful for this son of mine. I hope that you can find that same joy. He means even more to me at this time of year because this is when child number two was lost to a miscarriage. Treasure your gifts. I hope that you feel better soon.