I have a question to ask. But first let me explain a little bit about myself. I have suffered from depression for so long now, I dont know what its like to live without it. I had been in therapy for 11 yrs and then my therapist retired, so after trying a few new ones, I quit. Now I still do take an anti-depressant but I cant shake the constant feeling of hopelessness that I live in. I have tried so many self help books, sites and forums. I have tried to open up to people, and the years of therapy. I do manage to lead a normal life, but have this always present feeling of sadness inside, which I manage to hide most of the time. I see that lately I have been trying to read more about it so that makes me think, I must be trying again. The thing is I feel I have exhausted all my resources and after all these long years, I am still not cured. I was reading a depression book and it kept saying, keep up hope that your going to be ok, well I hate to admit this, I cant hang onto something I just dont have anymore. I feel like there is no hope, no matter what. What do I do now? Do I have to keep living this way. God its tiring. I just dont want to think about the long years ahead. what should I do???? Im so stressed.