Hey Jess,

Love can be like a roller coaster, speeding along without our control, full of ups and downs. Someone else deciding when it will start, when it will stop.

The main thing is to stay off the tracks.

Sounds to me like you are being run over. Sometimes life can be so dull that even the excitement of pain becomes addictive. Don't worry, when you've had enough, you'll bail. You sound like an intelligent guy - deep in the wonderful world of emotional turmoil.

Just don't do anything that can't be reversed.

Choices, it's all about choices.