> It's always important to get any lump checked out, no matter what your age and what gender you are.

Yes indeed, you did the right thing in going to get it checked out.

Thanks for explaining more about the process I think I'd only seen bits and pieces of it.

> I waited 6 months and my lump did not change and I was stilled worried so I got referred to a surgeon.

Okay. I guess I would have done the same thing.

> I was very upset at the inconclusive results so my surgeon said I could get a core needle biopsy.

Okay. Because you were upset? I guess there are two things we can do there... We can do the core needle biopsy to deal with the upset or we can use other coping strategies to deal with the upset... Preferably both.

> The surgeon suggested the core needle biopsy. He knew about my fears and thought it best for me to have a biopsy.

Yeah. Because that was what he could do to alleviate your fear. A therapist would have done something different (taught you coping strategies) to alleviate your fear.

> I know I have to get the biopsy because I know I will continue to worry if I don't.

I'm just wondering what the next health scare is going to be...

> I don't feel guilty about using up medical resources to investigate my lumps.

I wasn't trying to induce you to feel guilty. I was just saying that that is a medical consideration that is factored in to whether you get hurried through the procedure or not. Given that your risk is low and there are limited resources they need to prioritise.

> I realize now that I was being disrespectful when I wrote that I would rather kill myself than go through cancer treatments.

Yeah. Other people going through cancer treatments... Probably wish they were dead instead of having to do the cancer treatments too. They are probably trying to put those thoughts out of their mind and focus on getting through and coming out the other side okay. You saying you would rather be dead... I know it doesn't imply this... But they probably read you as saying that they would be better off dead than going through the treatments like they were doing. They are going to feel upset... I guess it isn't so much disrespectful... Sorry, I shouldn't have used that term. It is more that it is insensitive to how they are likely to feel in response to your posts.

> People there were mostly annoyed with me because I kept writing about my fears. They didn't want to hear them over and over again.

Because if they let themselves get caught up in those fear cycles then they would probably become clinically depressed and / or kill themselves. They want to try and focus on some of the good and kindness in life most probably.

> I think they picked on me after the suicide comments. They are supportive towards others who wrote about their fears.

Did you notice any difference in the way you wrote about your fears compared to the way that others wrote about their fears? Did the people who receive support tend to give support as well?

Did you give support Deneb, or did you just go and start posting about your fears?