I found myself getting better when I didnt question my state of mind. I dont spend a lot of time questioning if my disorder is a reason someone dislikes me. If its true that 1 in 17 has a MI then your behaviors are normal. Unless its directly mood related I dont think of bipolar disorder.

Honestly, I believe the culture develops and cultivates mi. We are programmed to worry and to ruminate which makes symptoms way worse. It becomes an overwhelming thing on our shoulders. The culture doesnt breed a 'present' mindset. You have things in the future to worry about, you have things in the past that you havent overcomed. So much struggle and there is no time to live. If you know that you need experience, try to look for a lab or shadow. Be proactive but dont worry yourself sick about it. There is no rush.