Background here: http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=239443

Today I finally had my first appointment with a therapist since 1994, and she agreed that my downward spiral at work could best be handled by using FMLA leave (up to 12 weeks) and taking advantage of short-term disability with 75% of my salary (up to 90 days).

Luckily, she was able to schedule me with a psychiatrist next week to start working on figuring out what meds I should be on. (My regular MD has me on Celexa and Abilify, but those aren't working for me.)

Looks like I'll be out from work for at least a month. Maybe more.

I'm SO incredibly relieved.

It's only Wednesday (and I only worked part of the day), but it has not been a good week and I was continuing to feel like my days were numbered.

It was interesting to hear a few things from my old chart. I have so much trouble remembering things. Does anyone else have this problem? I couldn't remember who I used to see or when I was there.

She filled me in on who I saw and the fact that I had not been since 1994. When she read me a few of the things that I was most concerned about back then, I laughed. They were things that I never think about now. I was on one career path, for example, that didn't work. I lost interest in it as soon as I passed the tests and got certified.

That's just like me, though. Work toward a goal, reach it, and then forget about it or decide it wasn't for me at all.

It's just funny how something that I put so much work and thought into back then isn't a part of my life at all.