I had to go shopping for my wife tonight to where and me and mom went all the times had a few checkers come up and tell me how sorry they were all I did was mKE A MAD DASH TO THE BATHROOM THERE AND SAT FOR A HR CRYING BEFORE COULD JOIN THE SHOPPING PEOPLE AGAIN BUT GOT WHAT i NEED FAST AND GOT OUT OF THE STORE AND CRYED IN THE VAn,had 1 old friend walk by and said pull the boot straps up amd get over it I felt like running him over not that I ever would but it sure bringsback all the old feelings of very deep depression and me feeling worthless and wishing I had never been born so every body would be happier with out me. I just wish i was dead tonight but dont worry no actions now just a putrid hatred of my empty meanless life that needs to end George