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Aug 09, 2012, 12:30 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2008
Location: Away from Polaris
Posts: 3,236
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Hi open eyes thank you so much for your reply 
i always see her as different person , i saw her mosnter side most of the time but when she talking about someone elses who also abused their kids and she will start talk like " how could they did that" or " i would never did such thing to my kids" and ect i saw her as different person, and its make me wondering maybe when she is abused us she not herself..if you know what i mean and thats why she dont remember it
and its scares me because what if i becoming like her, i mean without me knowing it
i know i can choose not to be her, iam me and iam nothing like her, and all people who know me knows that i lovekids and i always good taking care a kids and everyone say i will be a good mother and ect but i still scared
this is the longest periode i ve been home , never stay this long before so i see her everyday and its just make me more scared
iam scared i will turn into her without me knowing it .. i know its not make sense but just because it doesnt make sense wont make my fear go away
iam sorry for my rambling and iam sorry if its not make sense at all
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