dear one, i am so sorry your mom thought beating you with a belt was expressing love. that was totallly inappropriate behavior. nothing you did gave her permission to beat you. ever.

children learn best by trial, error and loving feedback. you can't beat learning into them. i learned that under my dad's belt.

don't worry about doing your "homework" from your t "perfectly". just do what you can. your subconscious/higher self/watching part will know what you are readyto look at and to get down on paper.

healing is very individual. your healing will custom fit you. the timing of you healing will be on your time, no set schedule. this is when you get to figure out yourself and your needs and your wants and what works best for you for a change.

badgering myself with positive affirmations, learning grounding and breathing and meditation techniques were all very helpful in breaking the chain of my destructive thoughts and habits to get my own healing under way.

if i close my eyes, i can still feel the terror and the sting...... raging parents are no good for kids. SHE HAD NO RIGHT TO WHIP YOU. period end. )))))))) ))dahla ((((((( ((

PS: i think that when it clicks into your consciousness that you REALLY DID NOT deserve to be beat, and that your Mom abused you horribly, your anger will come. . .