I'm so confused, lonely and sad. I recently broke up with with my ex and for good reason. He was pressuring the living hell out of me. And I was afraid to say no... but i still feel depressed. I have a new boyfriend, Jason, and I'm honestly scared he'll eventually do the same thing. I feel like my ex may have liked me mainly for my body, and I'm unjustly wondering if Jason does too. <y ex always said he liked me for me, but then he pressured. It contradicts, leading me to think I might have just been some sexy body to him. Despite being young, I loved him and then he hurt me so much. So so so much. And I'm so scared to love Jason. or any guy for that matter. And I'm scared to believe someone else loves me, what if they hurt me badly? Wouldn't be the first time. What's to stop it from happening again? I don't wanna be depressed and suicidal again but I fear I may be heading in that direction. And I'm so scared to talk to Jason, or anyone about it. I'm afraid to trust him and other people. What if they don't take me seriously and just laugh at me? Or simply not care...? I'm partly debating breaking up with Fabian. out of fear. despite how amazing he's been to me so far. But I guess it wouldn't be fair to punish him for my ex's mistakes. I'm afraid of talking to people about it, because they might think I'm being overly dramatic. Even if it seems that way, its honestly just how I feel. I feel like i have no one to talk too and no where to go.