I do not even know how I did it. I do not even know how it happened to me.

I do not pay child support because I do not have enough money. My current job pays much less than the job I had when the support order was written. My ex does not mind. He understands. My ex with children are trying to save money on everything. When he suggested I get a T, he meant one of those places where you see an intern who is supervised by a licensed professional, and there is a sliding scale and with my income it would have cost 15-25 dollars a session. I was already on the waitlist at a couple of such places.

But I misunderstood him and started going to my former medical doctor, who, after giving me a break from his regular fee, charged 175 dollars. That was literally the last bit of money I had, not even thinking of child support.

I cancelled him today, explaining that it was a lapse in judgment and that I would wait until I get a permanent job with insurance that would partially cover my visits. I will call the intern places today.

But I am at my wit's end - how did it all come about? How did I decide that it is OK to go back to an expensive therapist, with my history of lack of success with expensive therapists? Beats me! $350 wasted.