Hi justmom....So sorry you're having such a hard time. Are you under the care of a physician? If not, I believe you should find one soon and get him ~her involved in your situation as soon as possible. If this kind of thing continues, and there comes a time when you need to apply for Disability, you will need all kinds of documentation of your previous treatment.....in other words, proof that you truly have tried to "get better", and have not been able to get to a place where you can handle a job. Just some thoughts. Sending warm wishes.....