I wonder if depression can be caused by feeling there is no reward to what you are doing or no point to what you are doing. I have noticed that if I set up a good system for rewarding myself for what I do, I feel a lot better. If I tell myself I did a good job, jump up and down with glee for doing something, or check off a small task in my planner, I feel like I have motivation and am happy.

Currently, I tend to be depressed simply in this way: not being motivated, feeling unfocused, feeling spacey, etc. I tend to tell myself there is no point in doing things. It seems if I know I'll be rewarded in some way, a check mark, a treat, something of that nature, I feel better. I don't feel better just relaxing. When I "just relax" lately, I tend to waste long periods of time in front of the TV or playing Solitaire.

Anyway, this seems to be an interesting type of depression. I perceive either negative consequences or nothing good coming of something I am about to do. I feel like I simply need to train myself to think positively about tasks. It seems like rewarding myself for everything is one piece of the puzzle.