Hey Sugahorse,
I haven't chimed in yet, but not because I haven't followed the thread. I had hoped that you would quit worrying about everyone else's thoughts and just go to the hospital. I, too, am an abuser, so I competely understand the klonopin abuse. I think that you are taking too many of the klonopin, and if nothing else, you need to immediately address this with your pdoc. Are you drinking, too? I may have missed this in the posts. Since I have an abusive personality and come from a long line of abusers, I understand your need, but I think that it is time to deal with it.
Sugahorse, I have followed your needs for a while. I know that you are hurting. If the hospital is necessary, then take that step, but at the least, immediately talk with your pdoc and/or t!
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