Our county has full time psych urgent care. I will use it for the first time tomorrow. I will say at work that I have a stomach virus. I started having problems concentrating at work, and I am afraid to lose my job. I was given a splendid project today, a chance to shine, but I am afraid that I won't live up to expectations. I have an upcoming interview for a permanent position at another company; I should be preparing but I cannot focus. It would be a dream job - using the skills I already have, health insurance, etc. But with so much at stake, I freak out. I get stressed over the fact that I will be competing with other candidates for the position. Getting worked up is not what I need; I need calm thoughtful preparation and a relaxed performance.

D. has not written in two days. I am prepared to write him off as he takes more energy than he is worth; I do believe this situation with him has destabilized me; will be sure to tell the doctor all about it.

I have had a lapse in judgment signing up for expensive therapy - I have just enough money on my banking account to cover the therapy check... that is insane.

I had a period of unexplained anxiety at work - I would have reached for Klonopin had I had it in my purse (a lesson for the future).

Something is wrong. I am an unstable mess. I will go to bed now, get up in the morning, write down everything that is bothering me, and go see a doctor.