IMO you certainly have said this well. While not being noticed for something can cause us to become <font color=blue>blue</font color=blue> perhaps it takes the idea that there's no hope or reward for doing good to begin the downward spiral, and brain chemical changes, to create true depression. (?)

Doing what we can, the best we can, and recognizing that fact is a good defense of mental health. "Looters" will try to say you are being self centered by congratulating yourself for good work... those of us who know better know it's just good!

<font color=purple> May you continue to find good things to do, and better things to reward yourself with!

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>