You can see you have come a long way in a year, so don't you think (rather than feel) that it is your trust issues, your feelings of abandament? showing up in your through process again. Relax, slow down your thinking and knee jerk reaction and know that it will be ok. It is so naturalto let 'stuff' get in your head.

I used to really get a turmoil of bad thoughts that would just keep going on and on. It took me a lot of practice knowing my thinking was some what faulty before the bad feeling went away. Maybe your T is trying to 'teach' you to believe that you are ok, you can handle this, even though it is uncomfortable right now, it will be ok. ????

Hang in there. You are getting better, remember where you were a year ago. Just think where you will be a year from now.