today is weird for me , hello everyone. my name is sara and sometimes i think im going to lose my mind. im emotional eater so today i just want to sit and stuff my face with foods. i hate myself and my life. but not to the extreme that i will kill myself. i cheat on my husband, my son is druggie and my daughter wants to be gay. how perfect can my life be. i have failed in every aspect in my life. im not good in anything. i manage to fool people well maybe that's the only talent i have. i cant stand my nephews are staying with us. they make my flesh crawl . i just hate my life. i cant express that enough. what to do. smile sure ive been smiling all my life.im so good at it i fool anyone thinking my life is perfect.i am tired of smiling.i am tired of pretending. oh yeah i also have imaginary friends.yes i know they are not real but i have them at age 40 about to 41