Hamster - how are you? what did you decide? I see Venus has some good points. I feel like you are too hard on yourself sometimes. You needed to see a doc, and you did, that's a good thing. And I live in same area, this is just how much they charge $175 actually on the low end compared to some. Can you partial pay him? I do that often with pdoc and therapists. You've been doing a great job at your new job, I'm not there... but you are going and showing up and making it happen. Believe in yourself - you are such a smart lady who I admire. Hope you are ok