Oh, my God, the list is so long. I think I'm just carrying a load of anger. Then something sets it off.

The most recent is that my employer has shorted me on my personal and sick leave for the last six years. I just noticed it in late June. It makes me angry if I think about it too much, because when my adopted son was still at home I took so much leave time for school, therapists, court, etc. And I was always short of time. There was never enough. Now I know that I had more time coming to me that I wasn't being credited for.

The thing is, why don't people just say, "I'm sorry." You know? The lady who is supposed to be taking care of this problem hasn't done it. She's had six weeks now. For two of those six weeks she was on vacation, which I find particularly galling, because I HAVEN'T HAD A VACATION IN YEARS - NO LEAVE TIME AVAILABLE! And she led me to believe she'd deal with this before she left on vacation on June 29. I see by my calendar that it's now August 10, and ... nothing.

I asked my boss to intervene - and he did, he called her. But, he says to me, "I guess it's not a priority." That made me really mad. It sort of opened up a lot of wounds from other times when I wasn't a priority, I guess. There's a whole history here and some promises made to me that weren't kept.

I told him this morning that no one had expressed any empathy for the problems this has caused me over the years. No one has said I'm sorry. He said - paraphrasing - "I'm sorry, but it's not my fault." I don't know. He has no social skills, so I don't know why I expected any more.