I wanted to speak to her on the phone, and/or arrange another session... but a phonecall would have been enough I think.. not sure about now, I think now it's gone too far on my side... I emailed again to try and explain, but if she doesn't/can't get in touch I can't do anything else.

I know my T is human, and I love her for it. And I know emails can be misinterpreted... but we've been emailing a long time with no problems. The emails have got quite casual, and sometimes there is a little banter, but I like that... I thought we understood each other well enough not to have such a miscommunication, as naive as that may seem. I felt like we always saw the best in each other and wouldn't take anything 'the wrong way'... But this did seem accusatory to me, especially in context, because it just seemed so unbelievable to me that she'd doubt the validity of our conversations in session... I think what tore it is that she didn't get back in touch to 'fix' it - and when I got over myself and tried to, it felt like I got rebuffed.

I think it's probably a really bad combo of unfortunate comment + bad timing + triggered overreaction + my T being busy and not being able to get back to me + more triggered overreaction...