I posted in the romantic feelings for your T section but this is just so unexpected.

While I could never actually come out and tell my pdoc I want a hug and it is more in lines of like a mother and a child. I did write it in one of my letters to her. My act worker and an occupational therapist also receive my writings.

I saw my ot on thursdays and she is working with me one on one till I start intensive DBT in the fall. She also leads our art group and I have known her since December 2011.

Anyway she is going on vacation for 3 weeks, my pdoc couldn't make my appointment today and moved it to yesterday after when I would see the ot. But pdoc wanted ot to sit in on the session with my act worker who is always there.

Anyway after the session I went back to the ot's office for a book and she asked if it was okay if she called me when she was on vacation to check up on me. I said yes, it isn't unusual for her to call me, she has in the past when she has read something that has her concerned with me.

Well then she asked if she could hug me and I sort of shrugged that it was alright, we hugged for a good 20 seconds or more and when she let go she said "I love you." I just stood there looking at her and didn't say anything, she than added as a friend.

I know that she cares and worries about me, she always had and she is a goes out of her way for people. My mom says she has a heart of gold.

I was just taken aback as she has never even touched in a casual friendly way. At the end of our appointments she high 5's me.

It is still on my mind and I care for her as a friend/person but would not say I love her. I know some personal information that she has shared with me, as she felt it was okay to tell me. It may be because I have shared something and for whatever reason she shared and told me she felt she could and it would stay between us.

My pdoc never brought up what I wrote to her in this session and I doubt it will come up unless I say something which I won't because I fear being rejected.

LW