It's hard to feel normal with bp. I'll feel fine and slightly normal...until it's time to take out bottle after bottle after bottle of meds. There's meds to make me tired, and there's meds to help wake me up in the morning. All so I can feel as normal as possible. Sometimes I even forget about my bp until I find myself yelling at the kids for something silly like not getting off the couch when I said to. I actually yelled and screamed at my 6 year old for not letting me wash the shampoo out of his hair. He was just basking, but I couldn't back down and let it go. He is so emotionally messed up, and it's mainly because of my bp. And I am reminded of it when I try to take on as much as a normal mom. Then I get so overwhelmed and freak out, most of the time going into a semi-deep depression. Then I'm off work for a few months. That gets me feeling better, and I'm ready to try normal again. It's a vicious cycle.