Recovering alcoholic and bipolar here, too. Only I've noticed I have memory loss during my manic episodes, like I blank out entire stretches of time the way I did in my drinking days. People will bring up something I said or did when I was in the throes of the episode, and I honestly do not always remember saying or doing what they claim. Which leaves me apologizing for acts I don't recall committing, which sucks, but what else can I do? I'm all about owning my problems and not using BP as an excuse for my misbehavior, but dadgummitt, there are times when I think people make $#!+ up.