Noooo...I can't write it and I'm a writer...I write everything, but I can't write this. The lack of emotions are what's really causing the shame in this. I feel a ton of shame because of what I don't feel about it...I'm not sure if that makes sense. I think I'm supposed to feel more about this, but I don't, so I think it's because I am inherently bad . Ugh...it sucks. I hate it. Wish I could bury and forget it!