I'm sorry that I haven't been much support of late. I'm coming back...slowly. I'm still functioning within my position, but wish that I had more support to give because it's so healing for my heart, and I care so much.

I've really been under it lately. Then, when already emotionally sapped, the little man gets sick...he was exposed to scarlet fever (strep). He's doing better, but I got no sleep, and had a sick baby in my arms or lap for three days...sore...that baby's three now! I went to go to bed early last night and my youngest called and was crying...her face and teeth hurting horribly. I took her to the ER and didn't get home until 2 this a.m. Couldn't get to sleep until 4 because I worried about her and the drugs they gave her, what's the next step, etc. She was dx'ed with TMJ dysfunction...for now. It certainly sounds right for the pain she's in. It appears that her wisdom teeth are coming in and causing lots of problems.

Tomorrow we're supposed to go to a Red's game. I have a sitter and would like to stay home and rest and send the baby anyhow. The thing is...it's oldest's first anniversary and she was so excited we'd all be going together. I can't, unless it's really bad, let her down.

My stepfather died three months ago and left my mother in a horrible position. I'm also dealing with her every day to try to work through the legal and financial issues. Then she gets frustrated because the baby might need me at the same time.

I'm just so dang tired. I was doing ok, even though very sapped emotionally/mentally, because physically I was resting and life was OK in most areas. Now that I'm physically drained as well, and FEELING IT, I want to go away somewhere...even to a motel...just me. I want to hide. Of course, I'd take the computer.

I'm just so tired. Can anyone relate? I think I need to get back on my vitamins.

Anyhow, my boy's better and flourishing. Daughter is maintaining until the next step, but for a few days I felt like I was sinking. Does anyone ever feel that it piles up so high, that they see no end it sight? That's where I was at, but I know it's because I was exhausted. I wanted to explain why I've been slow in response and short in support. I'm on my way back.

I just wanted to share with y'all because you understand. Everyone here IRL depends on me and does NOT want to hear that I'm not up to par.

Thank you for being here and "listening",

KD