I have never had an episode this bad. I thought I was a mild bipolar because I never had the high energy levels or the racing thoughts, and then it hits me. I can't sit down or keep a single thought going. If I sit down, my legs are shaking and I'm restless. I hate this feeling and don't know how to cope with it. I also suffer from alcoholism and really want to drink. I've been doing pretty good on that, but it's been worse over the last few days. I feel like I'm losing it.