I seem to get hypo manic so my high isn't super high (i get more aggitated and spun up rather than happy go lucky) but I know that when explaining it to people, I've often described it as being outside myself. I do/say something and I literally cannot stop myself and at the moment I don't care. I WANT to hurt their feelings or whatever. After, even if still in a high, I can see I was an ***** but it was like I couldn't stop it. And I do it again. I do lots of apologizing to my poor daughter.