whyme i started therapy right when i got sober. the T had extra schooling in addiction. that really helped cuz he understood how we think. so the therapy and AA went hand in hand. i went to therapy for quite some time. i had been carrying loads of baggage. i had a lot of false beliefs about myself...like i was a "worm", Had no value, freak, you name it. i didn't understand life at all. i felt i just breathed air as i called it. weed like alcohol is a depressant. so it intensifies our depression.
it takes what it takes, they say, but i wish i had come to my senses earlier in hindsight. addiction shackles us with a heavy weight. we don't enjoy freedom. addiction dictates to us when, how, and how much. it will destroy us eventually-sooner or later. sobriety gives us our life back. and it's been quite a good ride for me.
my thought is why not try NA? it's free and can help teach you how to stay clean one day at a time. you'll hear how others got clean. you'll find lots of support there. it can offer you HOPE. we've all been where u're at so we totally understand.
your addiction beats you up everytime u use. you deserve more than that in your life.