whyme i started therapy right when i got sober. the T had extra schooling in addiction. that really helped cuz he understood how we think. so the therapy and AA went hand in hand. i went to therapy for quite some time. i had been carrying loads of baggage. i had a lot of false beliefs about myself...like i was a "worm", Had no value, freak, you name it. i didn't understand life at all. i felt i just breathed air as i called it. weed like alcohol is a depressant. so it intensifies our depression.
it takes what it takes but i wishh i had come to my senses earlier in hindsight. addiction shackles us with a heavy weight. we don't enjoy freedom. addiction dictates to us when, how, and how much. it will destroy us eventually=sooner or later.
my thought is why not try NA? it's free and can teach you how to stay clean one day at a time. plus you'll find lots of support there. it can offer you HOPE. we've all been where u're at so we totally understand.
your addiction beats you up everytime u use. you deserve more than that in your life.