my brain will not let me stop thinking about what horror i went through. i find myself shaking, then blacking out, when i wake i am screaming and scratching at the walls, in a corner of my bedroom, i look up at my mother in need, and she looks down on me in digust. i have no help at home, just reliving this nightmare over and over unitl i blackout, then over and over once more. and that is enough for my scared heart to burst with hate. i have to escape. every little detail is there, i feel his arms, i see the coldness in his eyes, i hear his death threats, everything. it wont stop no matter how much i beg, i cannot get out. i have no support, i am reliving every detail over and over.
-megan-