It sounds like you have been left with a lot on your mind and i can totally relate in parts i could have been typing. I hate the term borderline it is as if there is a little bit of everything wrong and they are essenitally saying they don't have a clue where to catogorise you... Did you feel close to your T before the 4 wk break? Did you struggle with the gap in t? Was your T suggesting that because you fought and won these battles show that you fit borderline traits as you are capable of having such experiences? Sounds like a cinfusing time... all the best!!