Oh honey, I have so been where you are right now. I was such a depressed high school student. I too loved music, but not in a rockstar kind of way but rather a love of marching band. I stayed 3rd chair through high school it was the only thing in school I actually cared about. But when it came time for college, I didn't even try the music program. I guess I just figured I wasn't the best of the best so it was pointless and I wasn't really sure I wanted a career in music anyway. Lot's of ideas about what to major in ran through my head and I finally settled on Elementary Education. I figured I like kids, the information is easy, and it's a salaried position with possible tenure. I could live with that. By the way kudos to you for poli sci I took one intro course and ended up dropping it. Way out of my league.

Anywho, I didn't get accepted into my dream college either....bummer. I went to my back-up school. I thought I would hate it. Looking back, I'm, so glad I didn't get accepted to my first choice. With my major I had to also have a minor, from a specific list. I always liked reading, so I figured English. Two years into my degree I still couldn't pass a single class required for the minor. I changed to poi sci, and then to sociology. Really interesting by the way...it gives you permission to people watch and detach yourself from society. But I always felt that others just somehow knew what they wanted to be and do with their lives and I was just doing what I was supposed to do.

All of my unsuccess lead to the deepest, darkest depression I have ever experienced. Which landed me in campus counseling and off to psychiatrists and my first attempt at medication, which didn't go over so well. The side effects caused me to screw up more in school and I eventually came back home with nothing more than 4 yrs of memories and a pocket full of debt.

Long story short I took three years out of school to work and 'find myself'.

I realized that I hate working and have no desire to have a career. I also realize that most of these thoughts come from the depression, which is almost managed now. I learned that I actually hate children, I know what a cruel thing to say, but it's true and I admit it. After working with public service on and off my whole life, including now. It hit me one day, I'm on the wrong side of this business. I enrolled at a community college (unthinkable to me when in high school) in Business Admin. and Accounting. Funny to me I always hated math in school, but it just makes sense to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't think of it as a dream job, but more as something I am capable of doing and learning and it pays the kind of salary for the kind of hrs I like to work. Leaving me more time with people I care about and time and money to vacation or whatever I might feel like doing.

My point is, you are very young, and I mean no offense by that at all, but there is a lot left to life. It's ok if you don't know your exact direction in life, I'll tell you a secret, no one ever really figures it out or gets it right anyways. Maybe you should take some time off from school and work and support yourself for a while and see if that gives you any meaning or direction in life. Maybe you could take some liberal arts classes to see what sparks your interest. If the depression becomes overwhelming please don't hesitate to tell someone. There are counselors and med staff at college that can be very helpful with this kind of stuff. Best of luck to you.