It's so discouraging. I know meds aren't a cure-all. I just was starting to feel so much better and then BOOM out of nowhere I find myself fighting all these terrible thoughts and feelings. I don't even know why I'm sad. And I'm starting to get angry...ANGRY with the 'normal people' who just make it look so D**N easy to be happy, to enjoy life. I always hate when someone asks me what my hobbies and interests are and I say I don't know I don't have any. They'll say why sure you do, what do you enjoy doing....and out of shame and embarrassment I make up something....but truthfully I have never had an honest answer to that question. I don't enjoy anything.

Everything just feels like a burden, a chore. I hate to admit it but the only thing I have ever enjoyed in my life is sex, and now meds have taken that away too

I just wish it wasn't such a struggle to live!