I have a very poor memory when hypomanic too but also a what the hell attitude too. Very painful when I come down because I care so much. Destroyed so much, lost so much. Kind of double **** because I get paranoid and trust no one either. Guess what, I have no one outside of my family. Hmm. I know I care but I kinda have to shut it all out because it's too much to live with. Not ideal I guess.