Hello,

I'm new here. I guess I was just looking for support. I was diagnosed with cyclothymia a few years back as well as generalized anxiety disorder. When I cycle, I have mixed episodes with ultra rapid cycling (like it changes from hour to hour or faster).

I'm in the middle of a bad cycle due to my stepmom just having been very ill in the hospital. I can't pull out of it yet. I am on depakote and klonopin...my doctor is considering changing me to a new medication because my anxiety has been up lately and I'm having trouble pulling out this time.

I'm just really frustrated. I'm going in and out of depression. I'm crying and spatting out at my boyfriend. I guess I just wanted to know I'm not alone. I feel so broken sometimes. I know when my moods are starting to go, and sometimes there is nothing I can do to get it under control. Just wait and up the meds, and let them do their job over time.

Can anyone just tell me I'm not alone? I wish medication and therapy and exercise and everything else prevented mood swings entirely, but they don't. I hate having this disease.

Thanks for reading.