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I'm not at risk of killing myself & I'm not even interested in injuring myself. I've been so confused & disoriented since yesterday. I don't know what to do. I can't even convey my thoughts. My head is just chaotic & I don't even know who I am. I don't know where else to post this. If it's not a crisis, what am I supposed to do? I have to wait until Monday to call the 2 therapists I am considering... And it would be a horrible start if I were to call them freaking out. I am dizzy & exhausted from how disorganized & chaotic my thoughts are. I have been experiencing more & more strange, new things lately. And more & more uncertainty about what is going on in my head. I wish everything could just be black & white. I'm not manic or depressed. I'm not connected or disconnected from reality. I'm not me or someone else. This is just riddling me with anxiety & my head is pounding. I can't concentrate at all, so this post may seem extremely disorganized. Even the slightest noise makes me forget everything that was previously on my mind. I can function, but just barely. I don't want to have to deal with this for too long because I can't cope with any more. I already have enough problems; I don't need more.
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