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# A few weeks ago, I was just sitting in my living room & all of a sudden got incredibly confused. I had no idea that the furniture had been rearranged & the house had been cleaned. For some reason, I thought it was "supposed to be" in the same condition it was in 6 months ago. It's as if I was stuck in time.
# During my trip to Florida, I totally & absolutely had no idea where certain areas were. It wasn't just forgetfulness... I was missing gigantic chunks of memory/knowledge selective from other interconnected pieces.
# Over the past few weeks I have been zoning out more than usual. But every time I snap out from staring into space, everything looks different/altered. More or less focused. It doesn't look different at all, it just feels like I'm looking through different eyes.
# Being verbally/visually acknowledged sets me into absolute panic.
# I don't feel like myself anymore... I don't know how else to explain it. I know what my interests are, I know what I think, but I have no idea how that relates to any actual self. Have no idea which part of me wants what or why. Nothing makes sense.
# Yesterday, I experienced mood/behavioural shifts like I never have before. Never ever ever. In a matter of less than 5 minutes, I went from very composed/confident to suddenly aggressive/condescending to meek & in a state of sheer fright that I was going to get smacked because I upset my boyfriend with my behaviour shifts. And once I finally became coherent again, the fear came back because I had no idea what just occurred.
# I keep getting these weird dizzy spells where my consciousness comes into or fades out of focus. My head goes dizzy every time this happens.
# When I have been doing my "just for fun" handwriting analysis course, my handwriting is slightly different every day. And I've looked back at my old journals, poetry, & it goes back for years. Just very slight differences but (from what the interpretation says) they seem to denote significant but subtle differences in functioning/outlook.