I am so so sorry you are going threw this. I know I cannot say anything to make things better. But it sounds like if you are looking for a home church that you at least have a strong belief system. If you don't mind I will be happy to pray for you. I can ask my church to pray for you as well. Just a anonymous acquaintance needs your prayers. If I know and you know and my church knows about your struggles then I know the Lord knows. Does the bible not say "Where one or more have gathered I am in the midst there of". I will certinly pray for you. With tomorrow being Sunday I will ask this unless I get word otherwise I will certinly pray. If I here from you to not pray then that is your choice and I will respect that. But I don't think that will be an issue. I wish you the best.